Doctor Visit

Wen to see the doc today. We increased my anti depressants and I got another Rx for Ativan. I have five Ativan left which is better then last time. I want to be off the Ativan for good. No I don't. I want to have it around I case of emergencies. For those just in case situations. I am feeling better though. I am laughing more an smiling more. We even had sex. That's a huge improvement for me. I didn't really like it but at least I tried. Getting better is so important for me. I know I should get counselling but I am not ready for it. Not sure what my issues are anymore. Focusing on me again. Love it! I may even try and go back to into health care eventually. We will see about that, but maybe one day. Who knows. Back to work tomorrow after being on night shift for a week. I went in for a few hours yesterday and was hoping to come in today but I was just too sick. We went out for a drive and some ice cream since it was too wet and rainy to go to the park. At least we got out of the house.