It's Sunday

I told my family I didn't want to go to church but I was forced. So here I sit in the kids room watching the kids play when I would rather be sitting on the couch watching TV. I know that sounds terrible. But that is my mood today. I am

Stressed about tomorrow as I have too many things to do. I have a doctors appointment at 9:30 and then I work at McDonalds at 10. I also have to find time to vote. I hate being that busy and having things to do back to back. It stresses me out to much. My life is a mess and I hate it. I hate Terrace and I hate my life. I hate everything about it. Ok not everything but a lot of it. I hate feeling like this. It sucks. Maybe later I will feel better. I need to clean an organize my house and I need to be able to keep it like that. I just want to be normal. Church was boring. No message just a big promotion for some ministry with deaf people. The music was good though. I think I am just in a mood where I am not able to appreciate things like this. 

New meds

Well my new meds make me super angry all the time. This is the part about the meds I hate. Trying to find the right dose and med is hard and frustrating and sometimes a complete of money. Gah!! With the lower dose I had more panic attacks and with the larger doe I had less panic attacts but more aggression. It's like I can't win. My sex drive is a little better but not much. Grrrrrrr

Living pay check to pay check

I am tired of being poor. I am tired of living pay check to pay check. I really should go back to health care.